I’m going to make this a wordy post.
Ytd i had this so called HTHT with benson poh (htht = heart-to-heart-talk). It was ages since i last did that with him, like months. You know, chances of you talking alot with your bf after how many months of being together decreases since you already know each other like way too much. But funnily, we wont know each other favourites like his fave colour, his fave food, his fave drink… It’s quite funny, but who will go ask about these nitty gritty stuffs unless they really want to do so.
So i was telling him i’m lucky enough to find him amongst so many people. Like there’s almost millions of guys in s’pore but yet you are able to find someone who could understand you and compliment you, thats like a probability near 0 but not yet 0. It’s quite funny how a relationship works, you usually get together with people you know for quite sometime, like people in your primary school, secondary school, tertiary instituitions or work place, and the amount of people you meet is less than 1/100 of the people in the whole world and yet you get together.
Then, he said you dont think i’m really that good. True, he is not really that good. Counting the amount of times he made me sad, feel like dying, made me angry and frustrated, he is not that good, not that perfect. But then again, who’s perfect. I also made him angry and gave a flying kick to a tree in the middle of the road. And then while he is looking at girls and seeing pretty girls, i’m also seeing handsome guys and making one or two of them my eyecandies. But he see more than i do lahhs, and sometimes i’ll also join him. It’s quite fun to look at pretty girls but sometimes when he gets a little overboard i’ll get angry, and the sort of angry that hits in instantly and he doesnt know how to react.
Oh and i’m petty and gets jealous easily, he cannot get over how i got jealous on my bday still. haha! and i’m wondering why i did also. But i guess girls should understand right, emotions are like the hardest thing to control, you can control your pee, you can control feeling cold under 16 degree Celsius, but once something or someone did something as little as sand (what kind of phrasing am i using) you just get angry/frustrated/pissed off almost instantly.
Then, we talk about Kailin’s favourite topic with me almost everyday. I kind of disagree with Kailin and kind of agree with her. But i still think she’s a good girl. Hmmm.. I mean a person wont be bad or whatever negative characteristics by nature right, sometimes it’s peer influence, sometimes is family. Initially i thought peer influence is not as strong as it seems, how could someone influence you so much to trigger you to do something bad, you can control yourself mahs, the ultimate choice lies in you. But then again, friends form a big part of our life, they shape you. The kind of person you are, is because of interaction with your friends. Imagine if i mixed with nerds, i will also be nerdy. If i mixed with bad people, i’ll probably end up smoking etc and doing things that wouldnt bring me where i am now. So i’m lucky to have people like meihua, laiyee, wanli, melissa, sophie and the other guys and kailin, joey, cristina, yunqi and the other guys.
Oh i think this is long enough, add on more next time.