I’m feeling so much better, better than how i felt on wednesday night. I wonder why it struck me so badly. I have been thinking WHY and still WHY. But then life still goes on, i still need to go to school, study, eat, sleep and shit.
I have no appetite these few days and maybe thats a good sign, can slim down esp my roundy face. hahas!
CNY is coming and there isnt this CNY mood though, not just me, even my family, friends and surroundings just dont have the festive mood unlike previous years. I remember when i was younger i’m always so excited bout it. But maybe as time flies, as one grows older, we tend to forget about happy things or feel happy over such stuffs. What a pity right?
Well, i better get going and study, exams are like in less than 2 weeks judging by how slacky i’ve become in this semester. EMO!
I just realized every semester there will be like drama in my life, and they can get really terrifying sometimes!
Oh! I’ve been going home with yeo kai lin these days and we talk like loudly and openly in the bus, even if it’s heart to heart talk. LOLS! loud people! ((:
moisxz is at the library now, studying for bstats test later and finding bensonpoh later.
excited!!! I MISS HIM VVVVV MUCH :D
Anyway some deep deep deep thoughts after seeing my grandmother.
She has been a really good grandmother, i remember those adolescent days where i’ll be watching teletubbies at 6pm at her place while she cooks rice with sunshine egg for me. Yummy with love! Then when i’m in kindergarten, she’ll occasionally bring me to macdonald, being a young and dumb kid, i always ate fish burger w/o the fish, so i eat the bread and she’ll eat the burger. I love staying at her place, all my cousins will lay mats in the living room and sleep all together. Such simple actions but yet so loving and enjoyable and fun, childhood memories.
I remember those days where we both would wake up as early as 5am and go to the wet market together, everyone in the market knows her vvvv well. And then we will sat up vvvvvvv late to cook for qing min jie and make tang yuan in December.
I dont know when did we start to drift apart, i guess it was in secondary school where the workload starts piling up and i’ve no time, not even sat/sun to go and visit her. Only now and then would i make a trip to her place even it’s just a few blocks away.
She was once a very funny grandma and so healthy and lively and not afraid of almost anything and everything. She had cancer, fell very ill, needed to do chemo almost once every 2-3 weeks. I remember that i’ll send her that, go eat at the hospital together and she bravely walks out everything, narrates to me the whole process. It’s painful, something i guess i’ll never brave through myself. Thats why i always tell benson i would rather die then go through the pain.
Sometimes i would rant that it’s a burden to send her to the hospital cos i’m busy and everything, but now i do regret, do feel sorry because she needs lots of care, and something i can do on my part is only to accompany her and make me feel love, something that i hope that in the near future my children would not abandon me thinking i’m a burden. thus i always or most of the time would accompany her there.
She makes trip in and out of the hospital now and then, so often that i lost count. Which person likes to stay in the hospital, with those uneatable food and the injections and pain one has to go through. It’s been so many years, close to 10 if i’m not wrong. She’s been really brave and strong, grandma u must get well, cook me sunshine egg and rice and i miss her chicken porridge tooo and curry chicken although i dont take spicy food!
Lots of thoughts running through my head, i almost feel like crying while typing this.
Now, i better go study!!!
LOW CUT SEE THROUGH SHIRTS THAT MAKE YOU GO OHOHO!
Yeah! I havent been blogging for ages. My life is pretty much mundane.
So the summary for this week is:
number 1: we got back results for CT!
number 2: open house for these 3 days, we pretended to be sec5 kiddos and get FOC NP SHIRTS.
number 3: projects are like coming all together and the submission week is like all projects.
number 4: i know i’ve a lot of things to do but i dunno what to do now??
number 5: i was working at citylink earlier in the morning and tmr i’m working at wisma in the night.
number 6: hmph! i wonder if i have time to complete my things with all that digressing.
number 7: my havaianas broke in school and i had to wore a beetle bug slippers home!!!
number 8: me and bensonpoh quarrelled today in the morning and later in the noon, everything seems fine and we bought havaianas together.
number 9: i better get going and study!
number 10: granny is in icu now but the condition is not that bad kind of bad, the other day i had to run from bensonpoh’s house to her house cos the ambulance was coming. the feeling was like???? i dunno!!!
Oh yes! I’ve got to blog about this before i sleep(:
Another ‘T’ addition to my life, not exactly though, but it somehow sounds ‘nice’ to say it’s an addition to my life.
Bloody bensonpoh is screwing up my life. By far, i’ve got one, two, THREE ‘T’s, who will be next??? Teresa, Tess, Toddy… HAHAS D: emo_gal92 signing off to bed(:
Oh man! The thought of school starting is totally dreadful.
As the new term begins, i’ve to struggle with assignments, project deadlines, going for dance lessons that i’ve been skipping for countless times, missing bensonpoh and yadaaaaaaaaas.
The worst part study. I’ve been pretty much slacky during the holidays, shit! I’ve been working, playing, shopping and more, anything but study.
And the worst part exams are like kinda soon, 1 month plus, whats more near cny! ): EMO SHYT!
I better get going and complete my itb proposal! Should i go for dance tmr, i doubt i can complete the pile of things i have on hand D:
BSTAT test again next week….
How was your countdown and new year?
My countdown was awesome, at least it was better than last year!!! I was working and wong lai yee aka liyi-arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr came and find me, i spend my break with her, we had butterfly dough(?), pocky, sweets and milo-peng… LOLS! And she left for countdown at vivo which i’m suppose to go.
But in the end, i went to Orchard Central Rooftop Garden with pohzihao and watch fireworks. YUMM YUMM! It was both our first time there, i likey like the scenery and he said i sounded like a small kid, acting cute, ASSHOLE!(:
And i had to wake up bloody early on new year to meet sophie and supposedly a lot of other people. In the end it was just sophie, me, kelvin, melissa (In order of earliness) (: We had frolick (:(:(:, a little chat, and shopping! I want to get the gray suede heels from neulook, now still got discount so it’ll be 30bucks? LOLS! Then when the other guys came, we had nydc for dinner and walked around aimlessly in my HIGH HEELS, freaky pain cos i haven worn them for years, my leg still hurts like shyt now. ): And i’m going work now, on 2/1, luckily wang mei hua coming find me to makan (:
Love you all, school starts and assignments due D: